Thursday, June 18, 2009

The wrong kind of positive.

On these IF blogs a positive test is usually a good thing.

B-dog's lymphoma tests came back positive, so it's official: she is now out of remission. :(

I go between feeling resolved and feeling inconsolable.

III was sulky and silent last night. He said it was work related, but that he didn't want to complain about work anymore. I don't know if that is all of it, or if he was mad at me (always my initial assumption), or if it's his sadness about B. I know that he is sad, but I think he either feels like he can't express that because he doesn't want to upset me further, or maybe the macho in him won't allow him to show it.

We are going to do some treatment, though not the full chemo we did previously, in an attempt to keep her healthy(ish) through the summer. According to our vet, without any treatment, she would have 6 weeks to 2 months- but not actually that long because we'd never let her get to the point that she was at in January.

Work just seems so unimportant right now. It is the last place I want to be.


Becky said...

I am so sorry to hear this about your dog. My friends have a boxer with Lymphoma cancer and it's been a long and windy road for them.

Please hang in there. I had to put a girl boxer to sleep last summer after a horrible and painful hip displacia, it was one of the hardest days of my life!!!!!!!! But i never forget all the good memories i had with her!!

michelle said...

I am so sorry to hear Bdog is out of remission. Having never lost a pet yet I can only imagine how hard the news is and how sad you must feel. Try to give yourself time to just absorb the news and plan for the time you have with her. I will be sending warm doggie vibes her way.

c by the sea said...

i am so sad for you and Bdog. i hope the treatment makes her more comfortable and gives you some more happy times with her.

Anonymous said...

Oh, I am so, so sorry to hear about b dog. ((HUGS)) a million times.

Anonymous said...

thinking of you this morning