I wouldn't say I'm excited, but I'm relieved. I guess that's par for the course at this point for us...
K, the nurse, called me bright and early this morning with my beta results. A very respectable 139. :) Dr. Z likes to have the second beta 3 days after the first, but that's the day we're travelling, so I go in on Friday morning.
Thanks for all of your supportive comments!
I have an appointment at a lab near my in-law's in just over an hour and a half. K, our NP for this cycle, sent the order as "stat". She told me "here, stat means like half an hour, but there it could mean like 24 hours." So we may not get results until tomorrow.
As usual, I don't want to be 'surprised' with a negative result, so this morning I took an hpt.
I took an hpt yesterday, at 6dp5dt. It was negative. Commence googling.... plenty of people saying that is too early, several who had positive betas after a 6dp5dt hpt negative. So I went back to my last cycle- positive on 5dp5dt. Of course, my beta four days later was over 400. But this has not helped to ease my pessimistic feelings about this cycle.
I brought 3 hpts with us on our trip, so I have 2 left. Trying REALLY HARD to wait until tomorrow to test, because I know I want to save one for Monday morning before my beta. But it's sooooo tempting.
I don't know what I'll do if my beta just comes back plain negative. THREE perfect blasts with NO stickies? That would definitely be a big 'fuck you' to the asshole transfer doc who gave us a hard time about potential triplets.
Ugh. It's going to be a rough 3 days....
I was working at the store last night when I saw a familiar face- at about 6:30, Dr. Z walked in! When I had mentioned to him that I had started working there part time he told me that he shopped there sometimes (he makes his own xmas cards!) so maybe I shouldn't have been surprised, but I was! So much so that I accidentally charged some poor woman for a $30 teapot she didn't buy!
He of course recognized me, and we chatted a bit as I rang up his purchases. (Though I was still rattled enough that at first I rang them all in as returns!) Just small talk, though a part of me was so tempted to throw questions and random cycle facts at him. "Should I be worried that none of my embryos froze?? I have my pregnancy test in five days! I have an appointment scheduled with you on the 6th!"
But of course I didn't... I figured that was probably not appropriate patient/doctor protocol.
After he left, I told my manager who he was and said "I don't know if I was more flustered by the fact that he's seen my nether-regions or that he's seen me hysterically crying in his office!"*
A few hours later, I came home to this email in my inbox:
It was nice seeing you this evening. I am always reluctant to say too much in situations like that as I never want anyone to feel that they have to reveal too much to their co-workers about how we know one another. I want to wish you and III a very happy holiday season and great things to come in 2011.
With best regards, Dr. Z
III and I have always liked Dr. Z, and felt that along with being a great doctor, he's a nice guy. That he initiated and sent this email definitely shows that.
*For some strange reason, my droid keeps changing the word "he's" to "ne'er-do-well"! LOL