Monday, March 16, 2009

My newest worry.

I very much appreciate the benefits I am getting from joining this IF blogging community. It's helpful to read about others who feel the same way I do, to learn from the experiences of those who are further along in the process than I am, and honestly it's good for me to be concerned about what other people are going through and not so focused on myself.

The only downside to this is that I find myself thinking about IF more than before, if that's even possible! True, sometimes I'm thinking about it in terms of others, but it is on my mind quite a bit. Being who I am, that leads me to Google. Some of the articles I read talks about there being a higher incidence of health issues and disabilities in children born through assisted reproduction techniques. I know that some of that has to do with premature births related to conditions that affect the ability to carry a baby to term. But it also makes me worry about my eggs. And III's sperm. What if there is something wrong with one or the other or both and that is why we haven't been able to conceive? What if that is the case and we conceive through ART - will the health of our babies be compromised?

(The totally inappropriate side of me, which is completely magnified being married to a LEO- have you ever heard some of the conversations a group of macho men have???- can't help but think of the movie Brighton Beach Memoirs. "You cant marry your cousin, you'll have a baby with nine heads!")

It's a useless worry. I can't imagine not trying to have a baby. I guess I can bring it up with my doctor- we have a meeting scheduled at the beginning of April to go over this cycle. I should start a list of questions... I'm starting to have more and more...


Emily said...

There is such a thing as too much information, but it has never stopped me! ;) Keep a list of ?s and consider yourself an informed consumer!

Auntie, aka cagny said...

Been there, done that.
Don't let it get in the way of your happy marriage.