Monday, March 23, 2009

Do you believe in miracles?

Because it's starting to look like that is the only way I'm going to get pregnant this cycle.

After over 1000 ius of FSH spread out over 8 days, I ended up with only one measurable follicle. Way to go, ovaries! Then today I went for my first of 2 IUIs (the next is tomorrow morning). After waiting for half an hour (I tried to be relaxed, but I had to get back to work by 10:43 to teach my next class...) because apparently they had more patients than they had rooms available, the nurse tells me (as I'm sitting there commando in my sweater and paper blankie) that III's numbers weren't great today either. I think she was being nice. While his count was nice and high, his percent motile was only NINE. Last time it was 41% and the day before that it was 62%. I can't remember the last time we had sex, and I remember when they did his SA they said it should be between 3 and 5 days since his last... *ahem*. It's definitely been over a week... so could that have influenced it?

Anyway, the point being that, even though I know it takes only one of each, with my one egg and his lazy sperm, it's looking like conception from this cycle is pretty unlikely. I was so bummed. I worked on not breaking into tears on the way back to work, since I had to get up in front of a bunch of teenagers and they're quick to point out anything they notice about your appearance. I called III just to say hi, and that made me feel a little better- at least not on the edge of tears. I got to school with ten minutes to spare, and was surprised by 3 former students who had come for a visit- one who had been quite needy and attention seeking as an eighth grader and who I felt like I had really helped and made a difference. (Unfortunately, they skipped class at the high school to come by! I scolded them for that, but considering my morning I was secretly pleased to see them for my own sake...)

I told the secretary I'd be late tomorrow morning and got a sub for first period. So I can sleep in a little and go straight to the clinic. I also arranged to have acupuncture this afternoon. I was hoping to go right after school, but they don't have an appointment until a little later. I was originally planning on going home, walking the dogs, and then going, but I think I'd feel rushed and that's the last thing I need right now... so I guess I'll stay at school, do some grading (my grades for this term are due tomorrow anyway) and go from here. Hopefully, I can still fit a walk in when I get home.


Emily said...

I am sorry you were disappointed this morning... holding out hope for you!

Caroline said...

I'm sorry to hear about your day. It sounds like a tough one. I hope that you are able to spoil yourself a bit, and hold onto some hope.

Thanks for your helpful comments on my blog. IF is so challenging sometimes. It is good to have the perspective of other bloggers.

Take care of yourself.

Sticks and Stims said...

Rough day - I hope tomorrow is better - and I am keeping it all crossed for you.