Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Still feeling crappy.

Scene: on the couch, in the living room. III is laying down watching TV. I am sitting on the other end of the couch.
me: [leans over to give III a kiss]
III: Oh, sure. Now that I'm getting sick, spread more of your germs to me.
me: Oh please. You're the one who wanted to make out with me even though I was sick.
III: That was on Friday!
me: I started feeling sick on Wednesday! That's why I came home early to take a nap on Thursday.
III: Oh. I just thought you wanted to take a nap.
me: Huh. That's what happens when you don't listen to me.
III: What?
me: [pause] Are you being serious or messing with me...?
III: [laughing]
me: You think you're so cute.
III: I bet you just rolled your eyes at me.
me: [thinking back] Actually, I did.
III: With a little shake of your head...
me: Yes...
III: And doing this thing with your mouth...
me: [trying it out] Oh my gosh, I totally did!

At least we have a sense of humor about our stupid habits and peccadilloes.

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So III caught my cold and I still feel crappy. I just took a sud.afed, even though I know it will make me feel crappy in a different way. But I'm stuffy and coughing and right now my priority is to stop that. I'll probably feel differently in about forty five minutes.

On the IVF front, I took my last BCP on Sunday. Still shooting up lu.pron. Waiting for my period so we can get this show started. They told me to call tomorrow if I don't have my period yet, but when I was on the pill, I usually got my period 4 days after I took my last of the month.

Today, SS's pregnant belly is bugging me. I don't know if it's what she's wearing, or she's really popped, but I'm feeling especially affronted by it. She's been a little better lately about her comments, although yesterday she regaled me with tales of shopping for the nursery. *sigh*

I called the new vet yesterday to make an appointment for B, and they luckily had a cancellation so I can bring her in this afternoon. That's a good thing because I'm making myself crazy trying to figure out if her lymph nodes are swollen or not. She is feeling fine- lots of energy and very cuddly. But I'm feeling nervous. Yesterday, III said "What are we going to do without B-dog?" I was like "Why did you just say that????" But we all just love her so much.

I'm hoping she'll be well through the summer. I'm really looking forward to spending my days with her this summer when I'm not working. I also think about the dog we will get after she dies, though, and it makes me feel a little guilty. We will definitely get another dog- we're a two dog family, and boxers tend to do best with a buddy. No one can replace my girl, but I love dogs and look forward to having more- I just wish I could have them all at once!

On Saturday we had III's coworkers over with their families for a BBQ. It was lots of fun, and I love when III gets to spend time with his "people" in a social way. They all brought their kids, and we had tons of kids running around our backyard. I loved it, but it also made my heart ache because I want our own kids to run around the backyard. The dogs were great with all the kids. B-dog LOVES babies. She loves to smell them and watch them. She played fetch with III's boss's kids. It made me sad to know that B won't be around for our babies.

My cold was in full effect on Saturday, so I didn't hold any of the babies like I would have liked. The hardest part of the day was the end. III's good friend has 3 kids, one of them an infant (~5 months old). They brought a pa.ck n' pl.ay so he could nap. But then they forgot it. I walked into our "office" (the room that will most likely be the nursery, if all goes well) to find it sitting right in the middle of the room. Ouch.

So I guess I'm not having a fabulous day. The weather is rainy and dreary, I feel pretty crappy and tired, and the last day of school (just under one month from today) seems so far away. Hopefully I'll get good news at the vet and feel better this evening when I can be less worried about B.

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