Monday, May 4, 2009

It's that time again...

Once again the day has arrived... beta day.

I honestly don't expect a positive result. My boobs are killing me, but that could be PMS. I'm feeling crampy, but am not sure if it's my uterus or my colon. (I have plenty of colon-crampy days.) Only one follicle and mediocre sperm this cycle- I know 'it just takes one' but one hasn't cut it for the last six months (not to mention the twelve before that). I expect the call around eleven, but probably won't update unless it's a surprise result.

Yesterday we read through the IVF consents. Geez, those are dense... I was a little nervous about deciding what to do with our frozen embryos "in the case of..." but it was pretty easy. III and I were totally on the same page. Keep 'em if he dies (since I am in possession of the uterus), discard if I do (since he doesn't have a uterus) or if we divorce. I felt kind of weird that I wanted to keep them if he died but didn't want him to keep them if I did... but he felt the same way so I guess it's ok. I'm sure there are people who make a different choice, but it is what we were comfortable with and I'm glad we felt the same way. Now we just have to make an appointment (or two- we probably won't be able to synchronize our schedules) to sign with witness.

On my drive to work from the clinic today I had a tally going in my head. I may be off by one or two in each.

Since August '08...

10 catheters
10 sperm samples
12 strangers who have seen my lady bits
20 self administered needle sticks
26 vials of my blood

I'm sure I'm missing plenty of stuff, but that was off the top of my head in the car today.

Hate Mondays. Counting the hours until I go home and can take a nap...

3 comments:

just me said...

fingers crossed for you today. hope monday flies by!

AJ48 said...

Fingers crossed!

Ohh I remember all that paperwork! It was like a book and reading through all of it was a little hard to handle. That's when it all first starts to sink in. If you do have to go through IVF..hang in there. I am almost half way through my first - so far so good. If you have any questions just ask! Good Luck!!!

meinsideout said...

any news?