Friday, May 29, 2009

Can't beat Friday...

Thanks for all of your nice comments yesterday. I know that moods like this have so many factors- I'm probably a little PMS-y, the weather the last couple of days has been super crappy, not feeling well, end of the school year... But it doesn't change the fact that I just want to crawl into bed and not come out. It's a good thing that III and I decided not to have a TV in our bedroom, or I really might never leave...

All I have to say is TGIF!!! I'm so glad the weekend is almost here... I'm looking forward to a relaxing weekend of reading, knitting (I am hoping to finish my scarf), bad TV and general slothfulness. III stayed home today to rest and recuperate, and I'm glad. He really feels crappy and needs the day.

I still haven't gotten my period, but they are having me move forward with this cycle. I had a superfluous beta this morning, just to make absolutely sure I'm not pregnant before pumping my body full of hormones. (Ha. Wouldn't that be ironic. I go on BCP as part of an infertility protocol and get pregnant while on the BCP.) Tomorrow begins stims- 300 ius of Bra.velle and 150 ius of Meno.pur. I hope this increase produces some damn eggs!!!

This morning in the copy room, I read a flier released by our state teacher's union about internet use. It discussed how teacher's have gotten in trouble and compromised their job security by posting things on the internet, whether it be blogs, social networking sites, or IM. I try to be very careful about this- I do have some former students who are 18+ as friends, but I don't accept friend requests from current or former students who have not yet graduated from hs. I also keep in mind when posting updates that some former students will be reading, though I wouldn't post anything too racy anyway because my parents and aunts and uncles are friends of mine as well.

When I use this blog, I do hesitate when I write posts about work and students. But, as you clearly know if you're a regular reader, I do talk about school, work, and some of the frustrations I experience- it's part of my every day stress, and honestly I'm finding this blog to be more helpful to me than my therapy sessions. It's one of a number of reasons I work hard to keep this blog as anonymous as possible. I know that there are things that I have posted that regular readers can probably put together to determine information about me... but still, I hope that I remain anon enough that I can continue to use this outlet to help me work through things. I think it's a very small chance that anyone associated with my job would stumble upon my blog (except possibly SS, and her blog is much less anon than mine and gives a lot more info, so I'm not worried job-wise there...) and even if they did, I think it would take quite a bit of reading through past posts to connect the blog directly with the person they know. What do you think? Am I being naive?

Happy Friday to everyone! Next week it will FINALLY be June!!!!


c by the sea said...

i also start stims tomorrow

good luck!

just me, dawn said...

hoping those doses give you lots of eggies!
hmmm about the anon stuff, I never try and figure out who a blogger is so I am probably no help. I started out as just me too....and then came out with my name because seriously I am not working so if someone strumbles across me from RL....well I have no bad intentions (as most bloggers we are all just writing and working through stuff together) so your situation is different, but from what I have read you have no worries. Sorry for rambling. happy friday!

Kris said...

I think it is a good idea to stay somewhat anon in the blog world. There always seem to be stories where internet stalkers pop up here and there, but for the most part people in blog-land seem to be pretty normal.

One thing that I would be concerned about is posting while you are on a work computer or while you are work. At two of my previous jobs they strictly prohibited the employees for using their work computer for any personal use or using a non-work computer while at work. It's kind of like using a cell phone at work or just talking on any phone while you are at work, which a lot of employers prohibit also.

michelle said...

I have been struggling with the anon thing too - I am somewhat anonymous on my blog - or maybe I should say I am vague. I never ever post about work unless it is totally benign like to say I got a promotion or things are stressful at work right now. I do want to be able to write about these things so I just recently added a section to my blog that is by invite only.

My BCP irony is that I took the pill from the time I was 16 (for cramping) until I was 36 and found out I could not conceive.

The way I figure it that is 20 years x 12 months = 240 months x $10 a month.....SOMEONE owes me $2,400 on trying NOT to get pregnant when I was infertile the whole time. As Sheryl Crow would say, "isn't it ironic"

Caroline said...

Good luck starting the stims. I think that it is good to use your blog as an outlet. If you avoid any identifying information, it should be difficult for people IRL to figure out who you are unless you tell them about the blog.