Wednesday, April 1, 2009

It's only WEDNESDAY???

I'm really struggling at work lately. My attitude SUCKS. I'm fed up with the kids, I'm fed up with the parents, I'm just pretty much FED UP. This particular group of kids makes it harder. My room, and especially my desk, is a mess, but it is clearly a reflection of the state my brain is in lately. I'm tired and unmotivated and just DON'T WANNA. That pretty much sums it up. Every time I go up to the white board to teach, my mind is screaming "I DON'T WANNA!!!!" If only the parents knew... I must be faking them out, though, because I got this email this morning...

"[my daughter] loves your math class … she loves sharing stories about your class and I appreciate how you are making math fun! She takes your homework requirement very seriously and has committed to never miss a HW again as this impacted her grade in the past! You are definitely motivating her properly as she is driven and wants to succeed."

So apparently something I'm doing is working with some of the kids...

I'm just so tired and blue and don't see an end in sight. I have about two and a half weeks until I get to a week vacation, and while in reality it isn't that long, it seems like it's so far away- I feel like I don't know how I'll ever make it! Making it through Thursday and Friday of this week feels unmanageable, especially since the ILs are coming tomorrow for the whole weekend...

A friend suggested finding something that I can do for myself- a treat for myself, something I enjoy... and I can't think of anything. I feel like the thing I most want right now is to spend positive time with my husband, but with his job that's been part of what's difficult. My most common desire lately is to go back to bed, but that's not really realistic at 11am.

Am I in a funk? Can you tell? LOL. Luckily, this funky funk has glimmers of sunshine... when I got home yesterday, my pups were so excited to see me they were wiggling all over. B-dog hopped into bed with me last night and III allowed her to stay and sleep with me all night. The sentiment in the email above is always nice to hear. I've finally lost 3 pounds on the new "food plan" I have going on. And it's finally APRIL!!! Here comes spring... So I guess I'll try to hold on tightly to those sunny things in hopes of chasing away some of the dreariness...

3 comments:

Michelle said...

I have been lurking for awhile and wanted to comment that when I was teaching 4th grade I was dealing with some bad medical news for awhile. I felt like such a fraud some days; the good news? As in your case - the kids just took me at face value and saw nothing wrong with my behavior. Sometimes we get lucky like that! All the times we have out "good" game on makes up for the not so hot days.

I hope you can find a way to pamper yourself. I would suggest a manicure and pedicure.....

meinsideout said...

I was so bitchy all day at work. ((HUGS))

Caroline said...

I'm sorry to hear you have been in a bit of a funk. Sometimes it is hard to get out of them.
I hope that you find something to do to spoil yourself.
Thanks again for your support this week. I really appreciate it.
Caroline x