Last night was 'date night'. III and I drove to a nearby city to attend a basketball game. (It was his Christmas gift- I bought him the tickets because the local school was playing his alma mater.)
At dinner before the game, we were chatting about body type, exercising and food. I was telling him that I was frustrated with my body and that, until recently, I hadn't really had to worry about exercising a lot or eating a certain way. I know that some of that is because of aging, but there are other pieces in my case. Before we got married, I lived in the city with a good sized dog- which meant at least 2 walks of significant distance a day. Now we have a yard and live in a neighborhood that doesn't lend itself to walking. Also, though I didn't know it at the time, I had a small intestine bacterial overgrowth that had been misdiagnosed as IBS. Once that was discovered and treated, I immediately gained 10 pounds.
So anyway. I told III that when we met I know my body, and especially my abs, looked good, but at the time I didn't appreciate it. I said that part of my wishes they had never looked like that, because then I wouldn't be comparing it to now.
III told me "The first time we slept together I remember thinking 'She's has the best body of anyone I've ever seen naked.'" Woohoo! That was a real ego boost, even though I know that my body has gone downhill since then. I told him that I just didn't want him to be disappointed that my body didn't look like that anymore, and he said "Well, did it seem like it was a problem on [the last time we had sex]?" No. Definitely not. :)
I still really want to find a routine that works for me, and I'd like to get more toned and maybe even lose a little weight. But I was reminded that I'm not at an unhealthy weight, and my husband finds me attractive- those are both important things.