Sunday, January 18, 2009

Much needed ego boost.

Last night was 'date night'. III and I drove to a nearby city to attend a basketball game. (It was his Christmas gift- I bought him the tickets because the local school was playing his alma mater.)

At dinner before the game, we were chatting about body type, exercising and food. I was telling him that I was frustrated with my body and that, until recently, I hadn't really had to worry about exercising a lot or eating a certain way. I know that some of that is because of aging, but there are other pieces in my case. Before we got married, I lived in the city with a good sized dog- which meant at least 2 walks of significant distance a day. Now we have a yard and live in a neighborhood that doesn't lend itself to walking. Also, though I didn't know it at the time, I had a small intestine bacterial overgrowth that had been misdiagnosed as IBS. Once that was discovered and treated, I immediately gained 10 pounds.

So anyway. I told III that when we met I know my body, and especially my abs, looked good, but at the time I didn't appreciate it. I said that part of my wishes they had never looked like that, because then I wouldn't be comparing it to now.

III told me "The first time we slept together I remember thinking 'She's has the best body of anyone I've ever seen naked.'" Woohoo! That was a real ego boost, even though I know that my body has gone downhill since then. I told him that I just didn't want him to be disappointed that my body didn't look like that anymore, and he said "Well, did it seem like it was a problem on [the last time we had sex]?" No. Definitely not. :)

I still really want to find a routine that works for me, and I'd like to get more toned and maybe even lose a little weight. But I was reminded that I'm not at an unhealthy weight, and my husband finds me attractive- those are both important things.

2 comments:

Carolyn said...

I just bought 8 and 5lb arm weights to have at my apt. so whenever I am in front of the tv or something I can do a few reps. I also get my yoga mat out and do situps. Its hard to get to the gym on a regular basis, but you can always fit little things in that make you feel good.

I'm sure you look great though!

Just me said...

We actually have an elliptical machine in our basement, so I literally have no excuse. :-/ I did sign up for a pilates class once a week, though... wish me luck!