- HCG level today was 84.
- I'm freaking out about our eventual move. The way my anxiety works, the anticipation of it is worse than when it (and whatever) happens.
- We don't know when it might happen.
- I withdrew my application for the new job I applied for. I can't deal with thinking about that right now, plus I don't even know if I'm going to be here for it.
- One of the many things I need to do today is to buy a blank book or a journal so I can start keeping lists. A list of the things I'm worried about. A list of things I would want in a new house. A list of things I need to do. A list for each of the categories of things that are keeping me awake at night.
ETA: My Bumpy Journey has a 'challenge' to go back and look at your posts from a year ago. How funny that exactly a year ago I had a Day o' Lists! I do remember how hard last June was. If only I'd known how much harder things would get. :-/
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Somehow my blogreader stopped picking up your blog posts! I can't believe it has been so long since I checked in. I definitely have some catch up reading to do on your posts!
Your comment "I'm freaking out about our eventual move. The way my anxiety works, the anticipation of it is worse than when it (and whatever) happens."
is so true for me too - all of the emotion and anxiety around my move (and the divorce and everything else) works exactly the same. I am moving in a week and I cannot wait to have it behind me.
Hang in there and try to do something nice for yourself this weekend.
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