Sunday, April 25, 2010

6w and nauseous

Today I am 6 weeks. I felt crampy and bloated yesterday, today I'm just nauseous. (But the cramping is gone.) I did not sleep well last night, and I'm sure that's part of why I don't feel well. I wish there was something I could do to make this go away. Ginger ale has helped a bit, and I'm going for the crackers next.

While I know the nausea is probably a good sign, I'm still feeling very in limbo. There's no way to know if this pregnancy is viable until I have an ultrasound, and that's still over a week away. Even then, as I know from experience, there's still no promises.

III has been difficult lately. Last night he wanted a "date night" which usually means dinner then sex. But with how I was feeling I just wasn't up for the second part. I feel bad... it's been over a month. But on the other hand, I resent that to get him to act like he feels close to me I need to sleep with him. I know he loves me. If I bring it up, he always feels bad. But he's your typical guy's guy- he keeps his feelings inside most of the time. When he's upset (about our infertility, about his dad) he closes up. It makes it really hard on me.

He told me last week that it's hard to look forward to this pregnancy after what happened the last time. That he doesn't want to get his hopes up. While I totally understand that, I also resent that he's basically just able to ignore it. I don't want to get my hopes up either, but I can't ignore my crampy uterus, my nauseous stomach, or my swollen, painful breasts. A little obvious support from my husband would be nice.

I'm trying to avoid a nap today, because the last two nights I've had a really hard time falling asleep. My vacation is over tomorrow, so I have to sleep tonight. So I think I just need to feel crappy today, go to bed early, and hope I feel better tomorrow. Meanwhile, I have a ton of stuff I procrastinated all week that I need to get done today.

Happy Sunday to me. :-/


Katie said...

My nausea hit at exactly 6 weeks...this looks promising for you! Sorry to hear about dh. Men just really don't get it sometimes, and it's part of a reality that can be hard to accept...I've been there, and find it cathartic and comforting to talk with girlfriends when M is like that.

Shazz said...

This brings back memories. I hope it settles down for you soon!!


Kakunaa said...

It's so hard when hubby doesn't want to talk. They just handle things differently than we do. Hang in there, nausea is a good sign :)