Monday, February 7, 2011

All is well

I started crying as soon as the PA came in to take my blood pressure.*

So they sent the NP in immediately to do an u/s. First we saw the fetus- we could see the shape of it's head clearly. I sobbed as it took her a full thirty seconds or so to find the heartbeat.

But she did.

You'd think that would calm me down. But it didn't. I continued to cry for the whole ten minutes I was with the NP and then through most of my time with my OB.

They told me I could come in for an u/s whenever I needed/wanted to, even if it was "every other day." They would usually have me come in next in a month, but scheduled me for an NP u/s in two weeks- told me to call if I wanted to come in next week too. I have to think about it, but my anxiety is at its worst when I have an appointment within the next 12 hours. So while I may worry that the little creature in my belly might be dead, it's the worst right before I get to find out if my worry is warranted.

Speaking of anxiety- they also referred me to a psychopharmacologist. My anxiety levels are not normal, even for what I've gone through. Apparently you are not supposed to have a full on anxiety attack every time you are driving in for an OB appointment.

So. I am officially ten weeks pregnant. I have an official due date of September 4th. And I am reminded that I LOVE my OB. And have learned that I love her staff as well. Fourteen days until my next u/s... (Unless I change my mind.)

*III was not able to come with me to the appointment after all, so that didn't help...

13 comments:

"Jay" said...

I am so, so happy that the ultrasound went well. I think it is normal to be super anxious after all that you have been through!

I am glad they are letting you get checked more frequently. And maybe an anti anxiety medication wouldn't be a bad idea? 10 weeks is a great milestone! Congratulations!

SLESE1014 said...

So glad you got good news.....and how fabulously well you OB takes care of you....I'm glad you're going to see someone for your anxiety....you don't need any more stress...good luck and keep us posted....

J said...

YAYAYAYAY...Congrats! I know you are treading carefully, but I'm so excited and happy for you! I'm so glad you have an awesome doctor!! :)

LisainSK said...

So so happy for you!!! Hope the anxiety subsides SOON.

sprogblogger said...

Sounds like you've got a great OB - take advantage of their offer. Also, people go both ways about this, but I personally found that a rent-a-doppler did more to ease my constant anxiety than anything else. Once my sprog was big enough to find reliably - about 12 weeks? - being able to find him, hear his heart allowed me to move on. Knowing I COULD find his heartbeat made me NEED to find his heartbeat much less, if that makes any sense. Something to think about, anyway...

Michele said...

YAY for 10w!!!

One Cycle at a Time said...

Wow! That's wonderful!!! Both being 10 weeks and having such an understanding OB that will give you frequent U/S to put your mind at ease!

~J~ said...

I have been reading your blog for what seems like forever, and don't think I have ever commented. I am so excited to hear that things are finally going well, and will continue to pray for the health of your little one. You deserve all the happiness.

sunflowerchilde said...

Yay, I have been waiting for good news and I'm so happy to hear it now! I hope you can get something to help with your anxiety ... that can't be fun to deal with on top of everything else.

thirtiesgirl said...

So happy it went well! Hope you're able to get the anxiety under control..I'm probably going to be the exact same way.

Infertile Farmer said...

YAY!!!!!! This is HAPPENING!!! I am so excited for you!! I certainly understand your anxiety. I really hope that with each positive appointment that you feel better and better. That is what I have experienced and while I know I will always worry (probably more than normal), it is getting easier over time. So glad you have such an awesome doctor!!

Frenchie said...

I am so glad everything is well with the baby--sorry to hear you are having so much anxiety. But I wouldn't go so far to say it is 'not normal' given what you've been through. Take care of yourself...go see the psycopharmacologist...(((((hugs)))))

heartincharge said...

Exhaling for you. Congrats! and i love your OB too!