Ultrasound

I didn't sleep at all last night. I kept waking up, thinking it must be like 4am, but it was only one hour past the last time I woke up. (Which at one point was obviously 4am, but that was only the time preceding 3am... anyway.)

I spent the entire drive to the RE (which took twice as long as usual because apparently no one knows how to drive when there is a dusting of snow) having a quiet anxiety attack. Full on.

Luckily there was no one ahead of me in the u/s list. As we went in, the u/s tech asked me "have you had any trouble or is this just routine?" I wanted to ask "Routine??? What is that???" But instead I told her that we'd had two miscarriages so we were nervous.

So I was relieved when she told us immediately that she saw a heartbeat. She showed us our blob and this time I could clearly see the little flicker of the heart. It was beating at 174 bpm and measuring 8w2d. Apparently that's all perfect.

I'm terrified to report to you that Dr. Z released me to my OB. I love my OB, but it's not the RE, where we are now very familiar (us to them and them to us). Plus I hate the u/s process there- across the street in a different office with the Dr. I don't really like. (The one who broke the news to me on my first loss.)

But I guess you have to move on. It's part of these steps we're taking, right? I called to make the appointment, and you have to leave a voice mail with your name, phone number, and the date of your last period. Seriously? What IF knows the date of her last period? Don't you silly OB office people know? We don't measure by periods. We measure by e2 levels and egg retrievals and dpdts. I know I'm 8w1d based on my retrieval. Dr. Z tells me my due date is 9/3. But LMP? No idea.

So today is a good day. I'm sure I'll start freaking out again soon, but for now... so far so good.