Tuesday, January 25, 2011

Ultrasound

I didn't sleep at all last night. I kept waking up, thinking it must be like 4am, but it was only one hour past the last time I woke up. (Which at one point was obviously 4am, but that was only the time preceding 3am... anyway.)

I spent the entire drive to the RE (which took twice as long as usual because apparently no one knows how to drive when there is a dusting of snow) having a quiet anxiety attack. Full on.

Luckily there was no one ahead of me in the u/s list. As we went in, the u/s tech asked me "have you had any trouble or is this just routine?" I wanted to ask "Routine??? What is that???" But instead I told her that we'd had two miscarriages so we were nervous.

So I was relieved when she told us immediately that she saw a heartbeat. She showed us our blob and this time I could clearly see the little flicker of the heart. It was beating at 174 bpm and measuring 8w2d. Apparently that's all perfect.

I'm terrified to report to you that Dr. Z released me to my OB. I love my OB, but it's not the RE, where we are now very familiar (us to them and them to us). Plus I hate the u/s process there- across the street in a different office with the Dr. I don't really like. (The one who broke the news to me on my first loss.)

But I guess you have to move on. It's part of these steps we're taking, right? I called to make the appointment, and you have to leave a voice mail with your name, phone number, and the date of your last period. Seriously? What IF knows the date of her last period? Don't you silly OB office people know? We don't measure by periods. We measure by e2 levels and egg retrievals and dpdts. I know I'm 8w1d based on my retrieval. Dr. Z tells me my due date is 9/3. But LMP? No idea.

So today is a good day. I'm sure I'll start freaking out again soon, but for now... so far so good.

24 comments:

Anonymous said...

I'm so happy for you!!! First hurdle passed :)

Michele said...

YAY!!!! Congrats!!!

Salisa said...

So happy for you!

Eb 40+ said...

congratulations!!!!! great news.

irrationalexuberance said...

SO excited for you! Very scary to leave the warm nest of the RE, but I think you will do just fine!

Anonymous said...

Crying happy tears for you, and hoping that everything keeps on the right path. I know how hard it is to have hope, but you CAN overcome the odds, even after losses.

xoxo

-K

P.S. My word verification was "beonspro" which made me think of "bean sprout" (our name for D in utero plus my brother's name for O in utero.) I'm taking that as a good sign. :)

Jem said...

what a huge hurdle you jumped over! yippee!!

thirtiesgirl said...

Wohoo! Congratulations on your awesome news.

Fran said...

Fantastic news!! So so happy to read this!!

DeterminedDory said...

CONGRATS!!! I've been thinking of you all week. So glad to hear that.

b said...

that's such wonderful news that everything is okay.

H.C. Bishop said...

That is sooo great!

"Jay" said...

I am so glad it went well! I hope the OB doesn't make you wait too long for your next US!

Frenchie said...

SUCH GOOD NEWS!!!

jjiraffe said...

Here from ICLW. Congrats! That's a big hurdle, crossed.

LisainSK said...

AWESOME!!!!! Congrats!!

Kakunaa said...

Fantastic news! Yay!

When we transitioned to the OB I gave them my date of conception/retrieval and a DD. They dealt with that.

The other day when I had to go to the hospital the ambulance tech had to ask LMP and I laughed. I said I have no idea...May? But I can tell you when the eggs were fertilized and when my DD is for sure. Or I said, I could make up a LMP for you. She passed.

Yay for your good news :)

ventingvagina said...

congrats!!! that's great news!

stacie said...

awesome. i truly hope things continue to go well for you.

Infertile Farmer said...

WEEE!!!! I am SO excited for you!!! Amazing! I felt the same way about leaving my RE and was SO ANNOYED at my first OB appt. They just don't have a damn clue about infertility and were so insesitive about my prior losses. Just try and take comfort that you are now "normal" and while you don't feel like it, that is an awesome thing!! Can't wait to hear more! YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SLESE1014 said...

So glad you got good news...it gives me hope for the future! I know the leaving the nest thing and moving on the the OB is scary...there's some semblance of safety when with the RE... but it really does mean good things, right? You're moving forward! I hope you rest up and stay healthy...wishing you the best!

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Serendipity said...

congrats on being released to your OB. I had to calcualte my LMP as O-14 and just give them that date as I ovulated on CD40 and people couldn't seem to cope with me giving them my real LMP then O date. OB's (and especially midwives) can be massively annoying when it comes to dealing with pregnancy after IF.

MrsH said...

How wonderful, congratulations! For me the IVF clinic gave me the "calculated LMP" date. That is what I gave my ob.
ICLW 19

Browniris said...

I'm so glad to hear that things went well for you at the appointment!