Sunday, January 9, 2011

And now for the bleeding...

There is a certain type of cramping I've gotten with each pregnancy.

It's in the lower middle of my abdomen, kind of towards the front. It is exactly where my lowermost scar is from my myomectomy. It is sharper than most of the other cramping I feel on and off. It only lasts for a little while.

By now, I know that when I feel it, I should expect some bleeding within an hour. Today was no exception.

I'm trying to be as zen as possible about it. I know that most women have some cramping during their first trimester. I know that 20-25% of successful pregnancies had bleeding in the first trimester. I know that with both my previous pregnancies I had a subchorionic hematoma, which likely caused the bleeding. (If you have a SCH with previous pregnancies, are you more prone to having them again?) Maybe this shouldn't reassure me, considering I lost both of those pregnancies, but before the losses two separate doctors assured me that a SCH is very common and generally normal and benign.

Tomorrow, I will be 6w. Two days and a wake up to our u/s. I saw Dr. Z last week for my post op, and he said that we have "optimized everything we can" for this cycle.

III and I were talking tonight about how we are trying our best to not stress/worry about things this time- to just let them happen- but that it is very hard. How can we not? And, as III said, even if we find that things are fine, we have a long way to go...

11 comments:

Michele said...

hugs and prayers...

Kakunaa said...

Praying all is well for you and that the u/s shows great stuff going on in there!

b said...

i had a little spotting for a couple of days in the 4th week (now in the 6th week too!) and no matter what anyone said about it being normal, it freaked me out and i couldn't relax. it's easier said than done, but at least you have your u/s in a couple of days.

re the cramping, i'd heard from a couple of people that their obs had told them that drinking lots of water keeps you hydrated and lowers the cramping, so that's what i've been doing and so far, so good.

good luck with your u/s :)

My Vegas said...

Oohh...my fingers and toes are crossed for you!

Krista said...

My good friend just entered her second trimester, and had a SH in her first trimester. She had bleeding, but everything ended up being just fine, it resolved on it's own. I don't know if that helps or not, but just thought I'd let you know. I'm crossing my fingers for your little one.

gingerandlime said...

Thinking of you.

Noelle said...

I am thinking of you tonight, and I hope that everything is just fine in there. I think that some women just bleed with their pregnancies. With my SCH, there was quite a bit of bleeding, and then it turned brown and clotty. I ended up having a bleed again from the SCH and I pretty much bled through the entire 1st trimester. I am saying a prayer for you right now.

Keya said...

Hugs, hope everything turns out fine.

Anonymous said...

From my blog when I was about 6 weeks with E:
"I'm still nervous every day. Today, I had some discomfort in my abdominal region, (which was not cramping) but anything that could "almost be cramping" sends me to places where I don't want my mind to go. I have to keep reminding myself that my bad track record does NOT mean that this pregnancy will turn out badly. That's the hardest part."

**HUGS**
-K

Fran said...

Lots of positive thoughts. I have been a nervous wreck all along so I completely understand how an overcome hurdle is only a step into worrying about something else. Big hugs, I'm here.

LisainSK said...

good luck at your ultrasound tomorrow...take care.