Sunday, January 17, 2010

Waiting

I was fifteen and a half when I got my period for the first time. It was the last day of ninth grade. I spent the first half of my teens embarrassed and concerned that I was (as far as I knew) the only girl who didn't have it yet. The worrier in me even had concerns that maybe there was something wrong with me... maybe I had a hormonal imbalance or was a herm.aphrodite or something. My mom was concerned. (Those worry genes are hereditary.) My doctor said he wasn't concerned until I turned eighteen. My friends who knew (I got to a point where I lied or avoided so that others would just assume that, of course I had it) said "What's the rush? I wish I didn't have it!"

If my cycle had regulated itself since my m/c, my period would have come this month on the thirteenth. It appears it's still a little off, though not too bad. Last month it was one week late, which would put me at the twentieth. I know it's coming... I'm having spotting and a little cramping. I'm anxious for it to get here. I just want to get started. I want to have a timeframe. I want to know I don't have to worry about the transfer interfering with our vacation in February.

It almost feels like I'm fifteen again.

2 comments:

Auntie K said...

I wish I was 15 the first time I got it. Unfortunately for me, I was 9! Yes, you read that right ... 9! I can't remember if it was the end of 3rd grade, or the beginning of 4th. Regardless, it sucked!

Jenn said...

I didn't get mine until I was 15 either. I remember wishing I would get it, ha! funny when I think about that...and now I am in the same boat as you, wishing I would get my period. My m/c was 11/10/09 and my first period arrived on 12/21. Now I am anxiously awaiting for this next cycle. I was always 28 days before I got pregnant, today is day 29 and I feel nothing other than my right ovary feels swollen.

I hope yours arrives and doesn't mess with your vaca, I always hate it when that happens!