Crampy and cranky.

I woke up on the wrong side of the bed today. Embarrassingly, I think part of it has to do with the fact that my cousin got engaged last night. While I'm super excited for her (it's about damn time!), things here have been so cranky and unpleasant that I think I'm a little jealous. Engagement is such a fun, exciting, happy time. We need some fun, exciting, happy times around here... For most couples, the fact that I'm almost 6w pregnant would help with that, but neither of us can allow ourselves to get excited. And to be honest, I'm not sure at what point we'll be able to.

Right now I'm definitely more nervous than excited. I'm having some cramping which is freaking me out a little. It's not the same kind of cramping I've had in the past- it's more to the sides. It's kind of hard to explain. It started out a few nights ago- sometimes when I'd roll over at night I'd get a pain on one side of my lower abdomen. It was almost muscular... but not quite. Yesterday I was having a lot of twinges on the right side, so then I started getting nervous about ectopic. But it's definitely on both sides.

The thing is, it could have nothing to do with pregnancy. It could easily be my bowels or gassiness- these are things I regularly have issues with. Or it could be totally normal pregnancy stuff. I tried to google, and I found both normal and abnormal reasons. So that just freaked me out.

I know I could call my doctor too, but I'm going to wait and see how I feel today. I'm not having any sort of bleeding, and it's not unbearable... plus, I'm prone to freaking out, so... we'll wait and see for now.

ETA: ok, more googling actually suggests I might be having some ligament pain. While it's more common in 2nd trimester, it can occur earlier. I also realized (TMI alert) I don't think I pooped all day yesterday, so it might also be some of that... thank you, progesterone... ;)

I'm going to see how today goes and then call tomorrow if I'm still worrying. :)